2018-08-28

No phoenix, my love

The house -- our house -- is a smoking ruin
Electricity's out -- no lights left, save for some random embers
I wait for dawn to go in and see what remains, what's lost, what's salvageable.
The TV - toast.
The couch is bare springs and a skeleton of blackened beechwood.
All the food in the fridge - baked.
That's ok. I can live with that loss.  
You reflect on what's really important.
What is?  What is it?
To the bedroom. Where is my wedding ring?
The dresser is a charcoal cube
An ancient altar after the annual ritual
The precious things we placed on top -- consumed
The incense of that cedar and burnished cherry
rose -- to whose nose?  What god found this sacrifice acceptable?
Fine.
What else?
I turn and survey the remains of the nuptial pyre
The scene of the sacred ceremony
Nothing lingers but a shadow
A smudge of grey, the bed ash mocks the entwined occupants 
What love lay there?
Down, down, into dust, blacked out and bedashed
No phoenix, my love
But eternally darkened cold and still. 
(Apr. 3, 2014)

My father, on leaving his home for the last time

As the orderlies wordlessly wrangled me out of my ramshackle rambler
With a rattly bang of the aluminum storm door
and a rump-bump-bump down the steps of the stoop
My deleriogenic dread of my final stop
was momentarily displaced by a fear of sliding off the stretcher
like a silenced sailor being committed to the sleepy deep.
(Feb. 27, 2016)